i have my answer and it hurts

"Sorry for the late reply. this
few day i will be busy
preparing my big day. Maybe
another day then."

I feel numb..
i know that another day will not come.
i know that this is the result of my decision.
i know that i let something good go.
i know that i will not be the same when i see him.
i will walk away.

what i did took a lot of courage from me and required me to put
my pride away. i had to take away my only defence to do it.
still at least i can close this chapter of my life forever cos only he
has the keys to open it ever again if it never turns rusty.

but i still wish him happiness afterall when i walked away, it was to protect
him. and i never stopped wishing goodness for him.

he will always be special in my life. the fairy tale that almost came true.