Chicken Little

I admit... i am chicken shit... but today i did something i wouldn't normally have the guts to do...i contacted him...but i was fake... i did not convey my true intentions...not truthfully..dodododo i am chicken shit.
Should i go further and ask him out?
Should i?
Guess i can scratch my head till the cows come home or the pigs fly and i will never find out.. the answer till i try huh...but at what expense?
My face? His feelings and happiness?
But is that is real happiness?
WHAT DO I WANT?
I want my chance.
Just once.
I am not greedy.
Can i afford to pay the price for my actions?
Can i answer for the consequences?
i really dunnoe... but what is the important thing here?
someone told me whatever happens, what matters is not the process but the future
how true is it?
i dunno..
i am afraid..of what?
i dunno or do i?
what is holding me back?
the consequence..can i face up to it...

i am chicken shit..