let it go

Packing up and letting go is not as easy as it seems.. yes that is true but if there is no intention or heart put in to let go than it will never happen.. i am not one who plays games... don't f*** around with me if you are not serious. I know how to play the game but i am just not interested in this kind of cheap thrill and satisfaction of feeling like a superior being to others. Its totally crazy and cruel... things would be easier and simpler ...people wouldn't die or feel disappointed or live with regret for a long time or for life.

It gets harder and harder as more stuffs and things collected and received from different people over the years.. and when the throwing part comes it feels as though a part of me is being thrown away... but really it feels more like having the ability to let go of it.. and dropping the baggage.. the feelings, the emotions, the hurt, the anger, the disappointment, the smiles, the laughter and the memories that all came with it.. and learning to move on, to know and trust that there will be others who will come in, to accept that not all will stay forever, some will go. I just want to be left alone for these few days..pls don't ask me about it.

choices are always present in life.. and it is the choices that we make that lands us in whatever situations. So if we let our destination determine our actions, we will makes decisions and choices dependent on our vision of our destination.

My vision is a happy, warm and fulfilled destination where words need not be spoken.. an eye contact, a simple touch or even a hand on the shoulder is almost as if thousands of words have been exchanged. Unlimited support immense trust and love that last thru all stormy weather or choppy seas.........