an entry from my diary dated 1 march 2007

i like the way he smiles and his eyes almost disappear.
i like how his eyes catch the light.
i like the way he pouts.
i like the way he makes me laugh.
i like the way he behaves when he shows up to be the man he really is and can be if he'll only believe.
and most of all i like his curtain eyes that he does not think much of.


every splash of wave brings with it another wave of emotions. some high some low. time and tide waits for no man. if man does not cherish then it will be gone. a new wave will come but it will not be like the old wave. maybe it is good maybe it is bad. but the old wave will never come back. live life and cherish the people around you. don't take them for granted. never know when they will be gone and there will not be a second chance with them again.

i want a love that is crazy and inconvenient. i want a man who will love me in a crazy and inconvenient way and he's the one if i love him back the same way.the passion, love, feelings and emotions engulfs our whole being. IT is peaceful and like a roller coaster ride all at the same time.

i am not perfect. but i am not looking for perfect. i am looking for the heart and the soul.

i've been living with a shadow overhead,
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
i've been lonely for so long,
trapped in the past i just can't seem to move on.

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
just in case i ever need em again someday,
i've been setting aside time,
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
oh oh oh

i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
i've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
i know that its out there?
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

i've been looking for someone to shed some light,
not just somebody just to get me through the night?
i could use some direction,
and i'm open to your suggestions.

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart again
i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

there are moments when i don't know if its real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration
not just another negotiation

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart to you
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that i'll be there for you in the end


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