Full of what n why

recently a gf asked me what is the BIG L...i told her what i felt when i was in the BIG L... sweetness when i was waiting for each call or sms, surprisingly not anxiety but sweetness...happiness with each call or sms.. the flying high feeling when we arranged a time for our dates.. that can't wait for time to fly so that we are together and that hope time comes to a standstill when we are side by side...the tingly sensation when our hands brushed together.. the number of times strangers mistook us as a married couple..the tiny little short walk we took in the rain and he said how i wish this walk will never end.. the truth is we never got together in the end and he is happily married to someone else now. But i enjoyed the moments we had with each other and the intenstiy of the feelings between us.

:} what i remember about love is that it is romantic.. strangely calming and excitingly hopeful..

another gf asked what is happiness.. to me i think after experiencing setbacks, failures, unhappiness and regrets.. when happiness knocks on your door.. you'll know it.. only a matter of whether you will be brave enough to open the door and welcome happiness.. and sometimes if you're lucky enough to get a second chance.. cherish it.. not everyone gets it.. another thing i feel is that sometimes happiness may be short lived, but this goes the same for a lot of things in our lives nowadays. It is not as important as before how long is this gg to be or how much are you gg to put in because ultimately it is this one life that i have and i want to live it.

all my dear friends out there, drop your fears and embrace life and her offerings.. when u keep hanging out with fear and rejection, you will only be living in the shadows of your life.. never moving forward and enjoying every aspect of it. At the end of the day you will be left with only a suitcase of regrets and maybe parting words would be "if only" or "i wish" hopefully not "i'm sorry".

i love all of u and i hope to grow old with all of you regardless whether you are married or not.. cos friends are forever.

take care and have a merry christmas and a happy new year.