life is quite unexpected.. things happen when you least expect it.. right now i really want to go on with my studies.. but it seems like such a rocky road.. maybe its just my brain.. never used before or maybe it was never meant for studying..mm.. such a chore.. sigh.. i really like the shoes from pretty fit.. but i spent almost a month's salary this month.. buying something i need .. so i have to eat bread for the next three months.....maybe its a good idea!! that way i can lose some weight.. haha i think i am a born sacrificial lamb.. ah.. no wonder i have been sacrificied so many times.. what is my value on Earth?i am quite disappointed.. i sent out an email asking people whom i was able to communicate with what would they remember about me when i die , some actually thought its weird of me to ask that.. IS IT REALLY SO? have they ever thought about death then? maybe i am a little morbid but death comes to everyone of course some of us go to hell while some go to heaven . so what if you go to heaven or hell? it's just that i face the question of death earlier than some people. I was hurt when i received that kind of feedback about weird. what is seen as important to one may not be important to the others. i guess i am the sacrificied lamb than.

goodnight earthlings.
Alien Loh is gg to leave the cruel world.
she will lock herself up and not be sacrificied anymore.
she has had enough of it.
let all the tears, blood, sweat and heart be forgotten.

Nobody remembers nobody cares
nobody cares nobody hurt
nobody hurt nobody knows
nobody knows nobody says
nobody says nobody sad
nobody sad nobody do
nobody do then the Earth is one BIG HAPPY PICTURE RIGHT???